Michelle Williams’ shocking confession : ‘I have been suicidal’
Destiny’s Child member Michelle Williams finally opened up about her history with depression and suicidal thoughts while on The Talk on Wednesday (Oct.18). The singer went public with her depression battle in 2013, but she reveals she has been dealing with the mental health issue since she was a teenager.
Only in her 30s Michelle realized she was suffering from depression. “I think… if I would have had a name to what I was feeling at the time I would have disclosed that I’ve been suffering from depression,” she said on U.S. chat show The Talk “I didn’t know until I was in my 30s what was going on. I just thought it was growing pains. I just thought I was growing into a woman. So I’ve been suffering since the age of between 13 and 15…”
The 37-year-old admitted to being suicidal at the height of her career with Destiny’s Child. “I’m in one of the top-selling female groups of all time, suffering with depression. When I disclosed it to our manager at that time [Matthew Knowles, Beyonce’s father, ed.] bless his heart, he was like, ‘You all just signed a multi-million dollar deal. You’re about to go on tour. What do you have to be depressed about?’” she recounted.
Her depression continued to the point that she wanted to get out of the group and take her own life: “I was at that place where it got so dark and heavy because sometimes you feel like, ‘I’m the provider, I take care of people. I’m not supposed to be feeling this way. What do I do?’ And I wanted out,” she said.